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Friday, 29 January 2010

January -Find my way back home-

January has been a relaxing month for me, literally. I've never been so laid back and lived a stress free life like nowadays.
Get up late, eat a lot, sleep late, no deadline, no traffic, no driving, no meeting hoping schedule, on and on.
If I look back over a year or two years ago, these days are absurdly surreal. I'm known as a busy workaholic young woman who puts career above almost everything. 
Investing time in career is great if it maximizes our value, but if I'm merely toiling away in obscure drudgery, I'm not investing in anything other than the same old paycheck I could get by doing any number of things.
I'd been always busy and got limited time for my family, my friends, and myself. Yet many times i keep saying that family comes first. That's a crap lie
This seems very obvious, but it is amazing just how many people are so wrapped up in the everyday stress of their careers, that they lose perspective when it comes to significant family issues.
How much more God, I've never had the time to sit down learning about the Word and worship God. Shame on me! I kept on making any logical excuses to avoid daily devotion.

As off Jan 3rd I'm no longer worked for the former company i worked before.
During these free day, I enjoyed myself getting closer to my family. Helped Mama cooking, cleaned up the closet and cabinets, washed my lovely dogs, Drive Mama or parents, Grocery shopping, on and on
I ensure myself to take appropriate action to maintain those relationships

I'm feeling happier. 

Not forget to mention here, I met someone very attractive on early days of Jan.
A young talented kind hearted attractive gentleman. He's the son of my Mom's friend. OK that's all the clue i couldn't share the details just in case someday he would bumped into this page and found out that I'm talking about him here :D hehe
Well, at beginning things went great, he seemed to be liking  me,so I was in haven.. We had a hella fun chit-chat and he even asked me out, I was too excited but turned out things didn't go my way. Let me just sum it up, He actually never contacted me. I was gone too much GR. Perhaps he thinks I'm a great friend to be with, but I was the one who insanely caught the wrong signal :(
I experienced one of the scene of "He's just not that into you" movie, I'd been checking my cellphone back and fourth,waited for a text or call from him. Fuhneh huh? yes you are entitled to laugh ! 
And to be honest I was feeling kinda upset and hurt, The last time i felt such things was about 4 years ago..
Hmm now I keep myself busy as I could in order to distract my focus towards  that lucky boy. A wise friend told me "If it meant to be together,it meant to be. If it's from God, it will get any closer to you"
So i'm kicking my ass off to move on, Get out of bed, put a make up on, dress up nicely and get some fun. Trading my mourning into joy. 

January has brought me closer to God as well, I read the Bible everyday,I study it and I try to put it into practise.  I have finished some books of the Bible, memorized verses of scripture, read spiritual books, and I haven't skipped any prayer meeting within this month. I feel so much more peaceful and stronger. And I pray it isn't only happening on Jan but the rest of the year :)

January oh January
I found my way back to God, Family, and getting myself back on track :)

How about you, fellas?

Sunday, 24 January 2010

The Quarter life crisis

The Quarter-Life Crisis
"It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself  judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out"

I bold mode what I'm kinda dealing nowadays. I gotta admit this article is quit true.
No one told me before that life would gonna be tough, I started losing some close friends one by one due to the busy schedule, they also have their own personal matters. Some of them have blessedly found their significant other and I'm becoming the "second best", having weekend by myself or just to be with my family.
I ain't 25 years old thou, I'm not there yet but here I confess that I am come across on this phase.

Facing this uncertain situation I can only hold fast to God and believe what He has promised me.
My palm is too small and weak to hold God's hand so I ask Him to hold mine.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord.”They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and hope"

Surely some questions still pop-up here and there but those are just tricky challenges, I will overcome with God’s grace. It’s all about journey to the destination.
Finally I would say that it is a good idea to keep your mind stable and positive, be curious and always ask a wise counsel around for things regarding your future.

Ruthie wishes you (20’s-ist) the best in facing your quarter life crisis.

(There's only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that's your own self. Life is series of change)

Friday, 22 January 2010

Lifetime favorite Movie-OriginalSoundtrack

Aerosmith - I Don't Wanna Miss a Thing

Leaving on a jet plane - Chantal Kreviazuk

There you'll be - Pearl Harbor

Love Song - 50 First Dates

Someday we'll know - A Walk To Remember

My heart will go on - Titanic

The Godfather

Can you feel the love tonight - Lion King

Favorite Things - The Sound of music

Kuch Kuch Hota Hai

I offer you my Isaac. The ultimate surrender.

"All that I am, all that I have 
I lay them down before you,  Lord 
All my regrets, all my acclaims 
The joy and the pain, I'm making them yours 

Things in the past, things yet unseen 
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true 
All of my heart, all of my praise 
My heart and my hands are lifted to you 

Lord, I offer my life to you 
Everything I've been through 
Use it for your glory 
Lord I offer my days to you 
Lifting my praise to you 
As a pleasing sacrifice 
Lord I offer you my life

What can we give 
That you have not given? 
And what do we have 
That is not already yours? 
All we possess 
Are these lives we're living 
That's what we give to you, Lord "

sur·ren·der :To give up or give back (something that has been granted) 
January 20, 2010

Monday, 18 January 2010

Old Chang Kee + Pokka Milk Tea

Would you like some?
Singapore Old Chang Kee Buffalo Wiing plus Pokka Milk Tea everyday menu, literally (When I'm in Sg)

CRAVING for them and MISSING Singapore so bad

The Ruthie Rich Times

Isn't that cool? The Ruthie Rich Times! The contain was taken from several favorite chapters of  The Message Bible version.
This is the material of my "Last Collection" back in ESMOD college 2006, when I was doing my last collection (such a "Tugas Akhir)
I utilized it as a backdrop of my booth-boutique, as a catalog, and a motif print for my T-shirt line.
My unbiologic sister, BFF, and partner in crime, Rachel Diana Widjaya helped me creating the graphic stuff.  Transferring the ideas from my brain into paper (read: screen)  Mucho gracias, Di!! You did an awesome job!

I am a right brained thinker :)

"Mother & I" photo competition

Last Dec 22' 2008 My church invited all the members to participate in a photo competition with theme "Mom & I"
Capture and share an image that represents what a Mother means to you.  Of course the competition was originally purposed to celebrate The Mother's day (Since we Indonesian celebrate Mother's day on Dec 22)
Each winner must agree that his or her name, likeness, winning photo and their writing may be used by Apostolic Generation Church for promotional and publication purposes without additional compensation.

I participated the contest, My mom was excited since she knew that she would be the main star of the project, you know what I mean: P

Here are the three photos I have submitted:

FUNNY & SILLY Eh? Yeah i know those are not the sweet-romantic photos of a daughter-mother supposed to be like, i tried to be unique with my photos. I wanted to show how close we are to each other by some activities we often do it together, also i wanted to be natural (No make up, no costume code)
Did I win? NO! Hahaha.. My mom seems to be more upset than me, She was pretty sure that I would have won the contest. She wanted her photo to be displayed and everyone would see her in those photos LOL. Anyways, I still got a present from my senior Pastor for contributing and developing the talents God put in me. I looooovee the gift. It's a nice pen and there's my name engraved beautifully on the surface "Ruthia Pasaribu". And it's actually something that I have always wanted, A pen with my name engraved. I wanted to show you the nice pen photo, but i failed uploading it, something went wrong.

The competition is also required a writing about "You&Mom", Here is my writing:

My Mama is my best friend. If I have to name just one favorite person in the world, I would instantly mention my mama. 
She could turn out to be everything I ever needed: a mother, a sister, or even a best friend figure. 
She is not a calm type of mother, she is more to funny, silly and cute mother type. Me and my best friends just can't beat her jokes, She's just too intelligent and funny at the same time.
I take a great pride in my mother's physical appearance. She has the best skin texture ever, beautiful and very well-groomed. 
She has always been my fighter. She is the one who has fought for my life and my biggest supporter ever. She would always dream big for me, my sister, and my brother. She could make me feel like I can do anything. She was the one who fought for my education when people seemed to have no faith of what I've chosen for my future.
She also fought for my life when I was diagnosed with a sudden dangerous illness a couple years ago. It broke my heart to hear her cried out to God begging for my healing miracle in the middle of the nights.
Not to mention, she was the one who cried with me when I got my first heart-break. She wept my tears as if she was the one who got hurt. 
The way she lived her life taught me so much about how to give. She is well-known as a generous giver. And for that reason, I've never seen her lacking and hungry. She gave me all that she could give and more. Not only me and the other family member who admire her, but most of people who know her would absolutely love her because of that.
We've been through so many things together, all the bitter- sweet life, and not a day goes by without thanking God for choosing a person named Dian Sefti Endah to be the one who gave birth and raised me up. 
My biggest fear is to lose her and not being able to see her on my wedding day. I wish my mama an everlasting joy, health, and long age. 

Lovingly forever more,

Your daughter

Ruthia.Magdalena Pasaribu

Isn't that sweet? hihi.. i love my Mom, that's the bottom line. Well, here's the moral of the story: Don't limit yourself of something you think you can not do it or something that is not familiar to you. To participate this competition isn't about the reward but to contribute yourself to the social life and nurturing the talents God has deposited in you.One more thing to keep in mind: you'll never know until you give a try. I celebrate my mom in my life, I love doing this, bragging to the world for having the world's best Mom thru picture and writing :)

Friday, 15 January 2010


Hi everyone

This would be my first writing on blog web.
Before long I had already gotten the idea about making a blog, but somehow i was overwhelmed with worrying  about what to write, what to post..I don't have the skill of writing , I might not have the interesting topic to share about, There would be no one reading on my blog, I could go on and on..
But then one day (which is last week) as I cleaned up my cabinets and drawer, I found a lot of  books & diary that I wrote a lot about my self, What's been happening that day, Whom am I have a crush on, My biggest fear, My victory,Childhood memory, Bitter sweet of life,  bla ,bla, bla
I found out that I have so many stories to tell and testimonies of life to be testified about.
We are a social species, As Iron Sharpens Iron, so one man sharpens another. For every obstacle and problem we had been through, We ought to share the world of how do we overcome it, So indirectly we help the world to be better by our experiences. We learn from others as other people might learn from us as well.
And here in my blog, I wanna be free of what I'm blogging, let's forget about the standard procedure of writing :D
Let's laugh and learn and share and cry together with me :)

Sooo let's get it stared !!! Buckle up for the bumpy ride!!